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eriks_angel_of_music
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Interests: I have so many that sometimes it scares me...
Expertise: Ha! Don't make me laugh. You think I have those?
Occupation: Dreamer
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Member Since:
2/17/2005
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| ...where did he go?
Is he sleeping..?
Will he ever wake up?
I don't want him to be dead...
I just want him to love me.
That's all.
Just love me. | | |
| I dont think I'll ever by happy again...
He likes Jessica and I know that Jessica has liked him for a while. She won't say it, but she does.
I know that its cliché for me to say that i wont ever be happy again, but really, i won't. I mean that. Death would be better than... this isnt fun... its not "interesting" like i thought it would be. It hurts. all the time.
All I want is for him to love me.. but he can't. it hurts so much.
Please, Yoshi.... I love you, please love me back.
I miss the beginnings of "my Yoshi". some parts of the middle and end, but mostly the beginning, when we didnt fight, when i WAS his best friend in the whole world. When he loved me. When we were going to spend as long as we both loved each other with each other.
Im sorry for all the fighting, and the not paying attention, and thinking that i needed breaks and stuff. I'm sorry that i was so horrible to you. I dont know what i did, but i must've been for you not to love me anymore.
My life amounts to nothing without you. Nothing is important compared to you. Not wow, not tv, lucky charms and mac and cheese dont even begin to compare. I miss when you would send me emails just because you were thinking of me while you were on trips.
I miss your mom, and i miss her boyfriend, but i can live without them.
Living without you isnt living. its going through the motions of it.
and as much as you say "youre going to find someone better and grow up and live a happy life and make a CHANGE in the world..." i dont think so. not without you.
I love you
i love you
i love you.
what would it take for you to love me back?
its not me being happy... im sure.
i know its not me being sad.
its not even me praying.......
what do you see in Jess that you dont see in me anymore? what did i do? what can i do so that you love me again?
thats all i want in this WHOLE world. so forget what i said about wanting money and being able to find my love still... forget that... I dont care what type of money i bring in, i want to be with you. and that's all.
no more fighting, because i love you.
please......
i dont know...
you already know what i want...
"I love you, Yoshi, and it doesn't matter where." | | |
| I just want to die.......... jessica......... | | |
| remember the Yoshi that I kept talking about? yeah..
so we're dating now.....
lots has happened, but we've been dating for over eight months, so I guess this blog is really out-dated. yay^^
anyway, he is even more awesome than I thought he was, but I'll stop here in case he gets embarrassed.
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| wow, it's been almost a year and I just realized what you were saying. O.O man I'm thick.
I did try to die, but I don't think it worked because I am still here... I've gotten better, I don't feel the need to end my life anymore. I think I just went through an emo period or something. o.O how odd.... Your poetry is still really pretty to me though, so keep going with it.
I'm not sure if I'm going to get back to ever actually writing here anymore, but it will be about happy things now... this blog will no longer be depressing. haha
To all those people out there who ARE suffering from depression or bipolar disorder: Go see someone before it is too late, please... it's not worth the aches and pains that you are putting yourself through by not seeing a professional. I know this for a fact.
Honestly, to this day I don't know what exactly causes it (even my case), but I know some ways to prevent some of it, so if you need help, don't be afraid to ask.
xlittleoldmex@hotmail.com is my email, but keep in mind that I am in NO WAY a professional, and I will probably advise you to seek professional assistance, but I will also try my best to listen if you need to talk then.
Take care of yourselves and to all the people that helped me, thank you so much, I am forever grateful.
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